This is heartbreaking.
It is sad and frustrating that humanity seems incapable of growing away from hurtfulness and cruelty.
I have no doubt that you speak from experience - - and I fully understand where you're coming from. We all have different stories to tell - - but the devastation and destruction that we endured is, tragically, the same....
At every fork I take the trail less worn, until there is naught but forest, and I can breathe at last the stillness.